April 9th, 2016

Well my Sweetness you made me work for it; you made both your Dad and I work for it. 30 hours of labour and an emergency c-section later we welcomed you into the world with pure exhaustion and a whole lotta… “What the fuck did we do”. And love, love more than anything.

We had 9 months to prepare for you. I read books and then relayed my findings to your Dad. He would ask questions and then I would consult with my books, our midwife, and the internet (I hope google is still around and kicking when it’s your turn to pro-create).

Was I ready you ask? No…

Did I actually know what I was doing? No….

But your Dad was confident we would figure this thing out. We are stumbling blindly through this so please be kind. You were and are so amazing. Your ten tiny fingers and toes, and sweet little nose (which is mine by the way… you have my nose.) We knew you would be headstrong from the get go when they put your slimy little body on my chest and you immediately headed for my breasts to get your feed on. You even wowed our midwife¬†¬†with your immediate squirming. We have the video to prove it.

This world my love can be such a scary place. It seems to be more terrifying now because I have you to worry about and to watch over. Every day you terrify me with how much you are growing. One day I won’t be able to carry you in the safety of my arms, but rather watch you explore the world on your own beyond my safe arms reach. I will watch you get your first scraped knee because your legs were moving too fast. Watch as you get your heart broken by your first boyfriend. Watch as you get bullied. Everything is temporary – remember this through out life.

You need to know my sweetness that although it feels like you are going through these things alone, and I am just watching over you – I am always here. Always in your corner.

I love you daughter of mine.

– Mom

“How wonderful life is, now your in the world” – Elton John